Anticipating takes you away from the moment you’re in and it doesn’t allow you to fully experience the moment you’re anticipating.
By this I really mean that when I anticipate something, or expect how it’ll feel when it happens, I’m taking myself away from the moment I’m in when the thought occurs. and when the actual moment comes, I’ll already have an idea in my head of what will happen and how it will play out. Maybe it will even cause me to compare the actual moment to how I expected it would be in my head.
I don’t want to live my life like that.
I won’t live my life like that.
I’m trying each moment to not live like that.
Each moment I’m trying to live just as it is.. as its own moment. It’s own life. Letting it breathe, letting it play out, letting it be.